12:24am
So… I’m taking a trip in December to see Ryan. That and I am talking to Chelsea again. Wow.
I kind of had a weird thing happen today. I asked Ryan what he was doing today and he told me he was flying. I asked him what type of plane he was flying and he told me he had trouble landing so I went online and looked up taildraggers and I told him something about it and he said, “how do you know what you’re talking about?” And I said that I love airplanes (which I do) and he said to stop trying to get him to fall in luv with me over the phone and I said that he’s not in love with me and he said he’s trying not to be. And that was the last time I heard from him today. So I dunno what is gonna happen to us or what because I am going to visit but my home is Chicago. I do feel… I dunno. I just got out of a relationship. So I’m not gonna worry about falling in love with anyone. but he is a great person. I just want him to be happy.
As for Chelsea…. I don’t think our friendship will ever be the same. I will be there for her if she needs someone but it will never be like it was before. I know she was going through whatever and I didn’t help but if the situations were reversed she would do anything to know that I was alright. She said she pushed away Erin and David too but I don’t think so. If anything she pushed me away and that was it. I knew she’d be back. She needs someone to be there for her when her world is shit.
<3,
me
12:49am
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