3:46pm
I have been struggling with this for a while. And to help me make my decision, I read some stuff. And you guessed it… I am speaking about Chelsea and Ryan. You know… I really have no idea what their relationship was like. And I never will. But she chose to be with David. Regardless of what happened or how it happened… she has never let herself deal with anything. If Ryan and I weren’t as close as we are who knows what he might have been sucked into. I really think if Chelsea chooses David… then she deserves what her life has become. I don’t think she will ever be able to handle the truth about Ryan and myself, no matter what I tell her. If I chose to continue being friends with her, I would eventually have to tell her some form of the truth. But really, if she stopped talking to me, would it be that bad? What exactly would I be giving up? Someone who can’t handle my opinions anyway. Someone who is friends with me only sometimes. I am sure I’m not the only person in the world to say “you can’t help who you like.” But I have to be honest and say that if we hadn’t of had our last night, I would have resisted at least a little bit. I wasn’t trying to get back at her, but I just let things happen and I didn’t feel bad because she was never gonna talk to me again so I figured it didn’t matter. Now I feel bad because she has been my friend for 6 years and now I’m the reason why she still can’t get closure. He is the only one who can give her the closure she really needs.
When it all comes down to it… we DID have a fight and we both did not handle things well. I met up with Ryan because I wanted to see him before I left. I had no idea there would be feelings involved. I really like him and maybe someday it will be serious, if and when we are ready for it. Truthfully, at this point in time, if he met some other girl I’d be sad but I would move on. Because I don’t want or need to get in too deep with this one.
4:11pm
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