1:21am
Hey sweets,
Oh my gosh I am so pooped. I cannot believe I took off work today. I needed to though. I couldn't get a ride and my badge was in my car in the Best Buy parking lot. Trying to explain that is so much more complicated than, "I don't feel good so I'm not coming into work today." So... I did a LOT of nbs today so tomorrow I'm taking Brian to work and then bam I'm off to school. I dunno what I'm gonna do on Friday. I mean if I wanna take you to the park or the beach or City Place. If we go to City Place, even if it's during the day I still want to get dressed up. There are a ton of places there that we can take pics.
I think Nathan might be mad about me about what I said to Ana. I'm sorry but how would she like it if my fiancee was dry humping me in her living room? Think about it. Has it ever occured to her that no one wants to see them all over over each other without even trying to be respecful? I thought the bitch was history so I don't understand why I have to continue watching this. Now don't get me wrong, I have no problem with PDA. In fact I think it's freakin' adorable. But when it's all up in my face and I'm uncomfortable in my own house, there's gonna be trouble. It was partly her, but mostly cuz it's just plain nasty! Plus she's a hoe! He needs to get rid of her skanky ass.
So... you need me to ask you some questions about Ryan. Okay so here they are:
1) when was the first time you met him?
2) what was your first kiss like? what was your last kiss like?
3) what is your favorite memory of him?
4) did you like his kisses better than David's? **
5) did you ever have sex? did you ever almost? what exactly happened?
6) is there any special place you think of when you think of him and your time together?
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* in regards to question 4, I only ask because I have had a similar experience with Donnie. When he kissed me it was like, completely amazing. I remember I was half on the bed, half on the floor reading his poetry on the lap top (he was on the floor and he wanted me to read it). I got up to go to sleep and he grabbed my blanket and I fell down. We almost kissed but then I pulled away. And then like 2 seconds later he started tickling me and then he kissed me. I swear it lasted like 4 hours.
I will always love Donnie. Ever since we met at LQ (leadership quest), I knew he was something special. But I'm not in love with him. He's just a damn good kisser. But I even told him before I got there that kissing wasn't allowed. It wasn't that kind of a trip. Well it wasn't supposed to be but it felt nice for a change. That's how I knew I was over my ex. Not once in the whole time we were kissing did he ever touch me anywhere besides my face and neck area. So... yeah he was probably thinking of stuff but that right there PROVES that not all men HAVE to have sex. so ha!
I remember the last day I saw him at LQ. We hugged and I kissed him on the arm. And then I was walking back to my car and he was in his van and he jumped out and gave me a great big hug and didn't let go for a couple of minutes. It took him almost the whole week to warm up to me.. but we just stayed close to each other. I remember the day we went to Lake Superior for solitude (the whole group went for like 3 hours of not being allowed to talk at all). On the way back home he said that he needed to talk to me so I got in the back of the van, actually Kate was with me too. Anyways, he just kind of sat there and didn't really talk but it was nice. I remember being tired and laying my head on his shoulder and looking up at the stars in the sky. I think I fell asleep and someone took a picture. Okay that was the 2nd picture taken of me sleeping on that trip. Haha.
Let's just say that if Brian kissed the way Donnie does, oh my gosh. He would be THE perfect guy. Btian is an okay kisser but he's not the best. But I still love him, heh.
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Okay, that is all I have for right now. I'm glad you guys are going to be okay. Oh my gosh I cannot believe how many pages I've written in here. When you get the bag you'll be like, "Holy shit!" but most of the stuff I'm doing seems like a lot but I'm making books that go on one page. I feel like such a nerd, lol. Anywho, I got a long day ahead of me so I need to get some rest.
<3,
me
2:05am
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